Always the photographer, never the subject.
I just reviewed the student yearbook by the July intake student. As I flipped through the the pages of events over the past year, I noticed that I lacked pictures of myself in the events even though I attended a large portion of them.
Then, I realised, I’m always the photographer, never the subject. I see that I’m always the one with the camera at hand, never actually participating in the conversations. Perhaps this identify more with my rather quiet and distant personality. I realised myself not to be the one with more connections or acquaintances, rather just someone popping in and out of a situation.
Being quite above the commotion of the crowd, I can be objective when times required it. But after all things stated, I wonder if the trade off is justifiable. As in Robert Frost’s poem “The Road Not Taken”:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
I chose to be the the photographer and it’s all that matters.